A Difficult Thing to Explain...
It's been awhile. I suppose a few months serves as enough of a vacation from all that thoughtfulness and introspection. If it doesn't refresh you enough to resume pouring your smitten heart out then perhaps you've less heart than you imagined. I've been busy, yes, but not too much to type here, just tired of typing here, or should I say tired of some of the eyes who were reading what I was typing here. I needed the break for the privacy...to throw the scent off, so to speak. I may or may not have achieved that, but I'm happy to write regardless.
Tonight I tucked Zo in to bed, and was about to read from "The Deathly Hallows," her book of choice this Spring, when our conversation found depth and curiosity, more than the usual, and before I could snap my fingers there were giant crocodile tears...restrained and on the verge of being less than in control, but there they were, breaking my heart.
"I don't want you to ever go away Daddy," she whispered through hiccups and tears. "I want to stay with you forever."
How do I tell her that's exactly what she'll have? I couldn't think of any other way to say such an abstract thing, so I just said it, and the tears suddenly stopped. I guess I forgot who I was dealing with. Abstract thought...a breeze. It doesn't patch a dented heart though.